The Anxious Baker

Wow, we are now in our 16th month of waiting for baby Maharg! I know to some that doesn't seem like a long wait, but to us it has seemed like forever! The waiting isn't made any easier when we hear our profile hasn't been shown in several months and when asking why they tell us it is completely normal for a couple that has only been waiting for 16 months to have high and low times of profile viewings. I have been constantly reminded that God's timing is perfect and He doesn't make mistakes!
I have tried to be strong through the waiting and the journey, but I won't lie, the wait has started getting to me and the anxiety of it has too! Thankfully, BlueOregano has kept us on our toes and kept our minds off of focusing so much on the wait! I love going into our nursery and rocking in the glider, thinking about the abundant blessing we have been blessed with and thinking about the miracle we soon will be blessed with! As crazy as it sounds, the whole journey of adoption has truly been a blessing! I have always struggled with patience and through this process God has really worked in my heart not only helping me to be more patient, but to also fully lean on Him and His promises!

Wait for the Lord;

be strong and take heart

and wait for the Lord.

Psalm 27:14

~Caitie 

The Honest Baker

It has been a while since I last wrote! We are approaching our one year mark waiting for our little miracle baby Maharg!
This past year has given me so much time to think about our baby and pray for them and their birth parents, which has been a huge blessing! This year has also given me a lot of time to dwell on and think about the struggles of infertility, the past few weeks have been a struggle for me trying to see the blessing in the situation we are in and not focus on the harder aspects. I have been sad lately knowing I will never have that cute baby bump that people ooh and aah over, I will never have the privilege of bringing that joy to my parents telling them I am pregnant or seeing the joy in their eyes seeing their baby bringing life into this world. With my husband being adopted I will never be able to help him have a blood relative. I could go on and on about the things I will never be able to do, but the past few weeks God has opened my eyes to all of the things I can and will be able to do! We will get to be parents to an amazing baby that God has picked out just for us! We will be able to share God's love with a birth mom and be a light to her! We have parents that will love our child and love them just as much as they love their biological grandchildren!

I have learned that it is so easy to dwell on the negative and be jealous of those around you, but I have also learned that when I focus on the plan God has for us and know that His plan is perfect I know that I can find my strength and comfort in His love and know that He will not lead us astray!


"through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope." Romans 5:2-4

In Him,

Caitie 

Don't let the cake collapse!

As we are about to come up on our nine month waiting "anniversary" I am constantly reminding myself to not be anxious about our placement and to know that God's timing is perfect! It reminds me of how if you open the oven at the wrong time during the baking process you risk the chance of your cake collapsing. In the same way we don't want to be placed before God's timing! I try to stay as positive as possible during this LOOONNNGGG drawn out process and remind myself daily that He is in control!

While we wait to be placed with our child we have ventured down a new path in opening our own business! Yes, some may say we are crazy to start a new venture before a baby comes along, but for us it is another dream! I am a professional chef (if you couldn't tell by the theme of our blog ;) ) and it has been a dream of mine to open BlueOregano culinary services right here in my home town! We will be fully launched May 1st and will have so many things keeping us busy and helping us in the waiting process of our adoption!

We are so grateful to all of you that have been supporting us and praying for us on this incredible journey called life!

" There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the sun." Ecclesiastes 3:1

~Caitie 

The Baker's Wage

Drumroll please...... Nathan and I are now fully funded for our adoption and have the funds for our attorney! What a huge burden lifted off of our shoulders! The funny thing is, is that so many people have said to me that the hard part is now over, and as much as I would love to say they are right, that is far from the truth. Yes, being fully funded is a huge step in our process, however, I believe the hardest part is the wait, the unknown, the anticipation of when this beautiful child will be ours. The hardest part is not giving God our timeline, but trusting and being present in His timeline! I found myself the other day saying how nice it would be to have our baby for certain events coming up in our lives or how nice it would be to have our child before my niece and nephew are too old to be close to our child and I had to stop myself and realize that I was trying to tell God when we thought would be best for us to start our family and not living for the excitement of knowing that He has the perfect plan for us, for our future family and for our beautiful baby! 

Nathan and I now have the joy of preparing ourselves to be parents and praying for our baby and for the birth parents. Praying that through this process not only would we be blessed with this child, but that the birth parents would be blessed through the love of God! Our journey has only just begun! 

Psalm 27:14 “Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!”

Isaiah 40:31“But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.”

~Caitie 

A watched pot never boils

We are now only two months into our "waiting" period and it is really starting to sink in! It is crazy how much love we have for this child we don't even know yet, a child that most likely hasn't even been conceived yet. God is preparing our hearts for this beautiful child! This is where patience starts, something I have never really been good with! As we prepare our hearts and home for this child I am struggling with the fact that unlike couples that have the instant gratification of knowing they are pregnant and knowing that in 9 months this baby will be in their arms and be apart of their family, we have no idea when this miracle will be placed in our arms will it be 6,9,12,24,36, etc.. months?! I know God has a beautiful plan far better than anything we can ever fathom and I am learning that this will definitely be a test of my patience and faith! I know God is a good and faithful Father and I am so excited to see what our future holds! Until then, we continue to pray for this baby and for their birth parents, we pray that through this journey not only will we grow in the love of the Lord, but that the birth parents and this precious child will grow in His love!

-Romans 8:24-28

"For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have?

 But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently. 

 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. 

 And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God. 

 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

The Baker's Calling

They say that adoption is a calling from God, not a right or a mere coincidence, but a calling from God! Our adoption calling came at a young age for both of us.

Nathan was adopted as an infant by his loving parents, Nancy and Greg. He has had the desire to adopt in him since a very young age. I (Caitie) have also known from a very young age that I wanted to adopt. After being diagnosed with a rare form of brain cancer at the age of ten I knew I wouldn't be able to have children, but God has taken that burden of infertility from me and replaced it with a desire to adopt!

Nathan and I knew before we married that this would be the way we would be able to grow our family. Not to say that it is hard knowing that we will never have biological children or ever be able to experience the whole pregnancy journey, but I know that the love we will have for our future children will FAR exceed the "hard" parts of this journey.

We have a very long road ahead of us, but are so grateful for the love, support and prayers we are abundantly surrounded with! We continue to ask for prayers and support as we continue down this exciting path in our lives! Please pray for the beautiful child God has chosen for us and for the strong and selfless birth mother that will make our dreams a reality. What an honor it is that God has called us into this journey!

I wanted to close with this beautiful message that my sister gave us to put in our nursery!

Not flesh of my flesh

Nor bone of my bone

Yet still miraculously my own.

Never forget for a single minute

You weren't born under my 

Heart,

But in it.  

God Bless,

Nathan and Caitie

Our bun has started baking

Our adoption journey has finally begun and a hope for our future family is becoming more of a reality! We are beyond excited to embark on this journey, but I wont lie, we are scared, scared about what lies ahead and scared about rejection. We are nervous to meet the little one we will be entrusted to raise and love and meet the expectations of the birth mother. We are beyond excited about what the future holds, excited about having the chance to raise and love this beautiful child and excited about embarking down the path God has chosen from us!

We are now in the waiting stages of the adoption process. This is when birth mothers are shown numerous profile books and we hold our breath to see if we are the lucky parents that will be chosen. Generally this stage lasts for 2-3 years, yes that's right, 2-3 years! If I didn't have patience before, by golly by the end of this process I will be swimming in it!
We are so excited about our future and will be keeping you posted along the way!

God Bless,
Nathan and Caitie Maharg