This past year has given me so much time to think about our baby and pray for them and their birth parents, which has been a huge blessing! This year has also given me a lot of time to dwell on and think about the struggles of infertility, the past few weeks have been a struggle for me trying to see the blessing in the situation we are in and not focus on the harder aspects. I have been sad lately knowing I will never have that cute baby bump that people ooh and aah over, I will never have the privilege of bringing that joy to my parents telling them I am pregnant or seeing the joy in their eyes seeing their baby bringing life into this world. With my husband being adopted I will never be able to help him have a blood relative. I could go on and on about the things I will never be able to do, but the past few weeks God has opened my eyes to all of the things I can and will be able to do! We will get to be parents to an amazing baby that God has picked out just for us! We will be able to share God's love with a birth mom and be a light to her! We have parents that will love our child and love them just as much as they love their biological grandchildren!
I have learned that it is so easy to dwell on the negative and be jealous of those around you, but I have also learned that when I focus on the plan God has for us and know that His plan is perfect I know that I can find my strength and comfort in His love and know that He will not lead us astray!
"through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope." Romans 5:2-4
In Him,
Caitie
