The Anxious Baker

Wow, we are now in our 16th month of waiting for baby Maharg! I know to some that doesn't seem like a long wait, but to us it has seemed like forever! The waiting isn't made any easier when we hear our profile hasn't been shown in several months and when asking why they tell us it is completely normal for a couple that has only been waiting for 16 months to have high and low times of profile viewings. I have been constantly reminded that God's timing is perfect and He doesn't make mistakes!
I have tried to be strong through the waiting and the journey, but I won't lie, the wait has started getting to me and the anxiety of it has too! Thankfully, BlueOregano has kept us on our toes and kept our minds off of focusing so much on the wait! I love going into our nursery and rocking in the glider, thinking about the abundant blessing we have been blessed with and thinking about the miracle we soon will be blessed with! As crazy as it sounds, the whole journey of adoption has truly been a blessing! I have always struggled with patience and through this process God has really worked in my heart not only helping me to be more patient, but to also fully lean on Him and His promises!

Wait for the Lord;

be strong and take heart

and wait for the Lord.

Psalm 27:14

~Caitie 

The Honest Baker

It has been a while since I last wrote! We are approaching our one year mark waiting for our little miracle baby Maharg!
This past year has given me so much time to think about our baby and pray for them and their birth parents, which has been a huge blessing! This year has also given me a lot of time to dwell on and think about the struggles of infertility, the past few weeks have been a struggle for me trying to see the blessing in the situation we are in and not focus on the harder aspects. I have been sad lately knowing I will never have that cute baby bump that people ooh and aah over, I will never have the privilege of bringing that joy to my parents telling them I am pregnant or seeing the joy in their eyes seeing their baby bringing life into this world. With my husband being adopted I will never be able to help him have a blood relative. I could go on and on about the things I will never be able to do, but the past few weeks God has opened my eyes to all of the things I can and will be able to do! We will get to be parents to an amazing baby that God has picked out just for us! We will be able to share God's love with a birth mom and be a light to her! We have parents that will love our child and love them just as much as they love their biological grandchildren!

I have learned that it is so easy to dwell on the negative and be jealous of those around you, but I have also learned that when I focus on the plan God has for us and know that His plan is perfect I know that I can find my strength and comfort in His love and know that He will not lead us astray!


"through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope." Romans 5:2-4

In Him,

Caitie 

Don't let the cake collapse!

As we are about to come up on our nine month waiting "anniversary" I am constantly reminding myself to not be anxious about our placement and to know that God's timing is perfect! It reminds me of how if you open the oven at the wrong time during the baking process you risk the chance of your cake collapsing. In the same way we don't want to be placed before God's timing! I try to stay as positive as possible during this LOOONNNGGG drawn out process and remind myself daily that He is in control!

While we wait to be placed with our child we have ventured down a new path in opening our own business! Yes, some may say we are crazy to start a new venture before a baby comes along, but for us it is another dream! I am a professional chef (if you couldn't tell by the theme of our blog ;) ) and it has been a dream of mine to open BlueOregano culinary services right here in my home town! We will be fully launched May 1st and will have so many things keeping us busy and helping us in the waiting process of our adoption!

We are so grateful to all of you that have been supporting us and praying for us on this incredible journey called life!

" There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the sun." Ecclesiastes 3:1

~Caitie